Recently, I watched a movie called “Obsession,” and I liked it. I don’t recommend it. It’s a psychological horror, and if you’re not comfortable watching that kind of stuff, please do not watch it. I was amazed at how well it was made by Curry Barker. The story is about a guy who seems nice and kind and likes a girl but doesn’t dare tell her. He gets a One Willow wish from the gift shop and asks for one wish: for the girl to love him more than anything in the world. It starts, and the girl seems scary at first because of how she acts, but as you keep watching, you realize she’s a real victim. She’s a victim of the wish that was placed on her. The guy knows it’s not really real, but it’s the wish he asked for, and still he acts like everything is fine.
There was a battle inside that girl, the real girl and the entity that took over her. She was screaming inside and wanted to die because she knew that another entity was using her for someone else’s wishes. She was with someone whom she did not love but was compelled to love. It was a tragic place to be, a place where you had no choice, especially not the choice to love someone who loves you. Love does not keep us hostage or manipulate us to get what it wants.
Felt Like A Puppet Of The System
I grew up in the church as a PK (Pastor’s Kid). There was stuff that we had to do and be just because my dad was a pastor, and we had to keep a good reputation. I knew the terms being used by Christians and was getting used to using them. I went to bible college and felt that this is my life; I have to be the person that my current environment is providing. If I had a different upbringing, would I be following God? If I get out of the church environment and have a choice to leave everything and live a life that is opposite to the life I have lived.
Many times, I felt like a puppet of the system I grew up in, doing church stuff because I had to and not because I wanted to. I felt like I could not share about a bad day because it would mean I don’t trust God, or if something is wrong, it’s maybe because I did something, and He is using the situation and making life harder, so I could only have a choice to run to Him and nothing else. I felt like I was deep in the water, screaming, but no one was listening. I decided to read about the alternative stuff and other religions, atheism, and try to come out of the system that I was in. I thought being a Christian meant good things would happen to you, so you need to be a good Christian, so I did what I could to be a good one, but life seemed worse. The situation took a different turn than I expected. Will I follow Him? Would I reject Him when I know there is no one to show my Christianity? Am I being manipulated by the situation to follow him? The evil thing a god could ever do is to make you love him without allowing you to reject Him. And when you reject him, he will make sure that the things that you desire in this world will never come true because you rejected him, but we do not see that in this world; we see people reject him and still seem happy, and we also see those who accepted him live miserably.
The evil thing a god could ever do is to make you love him without allowing you to reject Him
I don’t want to follow him out of compulsion, how the brain has been set with systems to follow. This is what breeds religious fanatics who have wired their brain with rules and not intimacy
This is what breeds religious fanatics who have wired their brain with rules and not intimacy
A Sacred Gift of Free Will in Love
I thanked God because even He can do anything, and nothing is impossible for Him. He gives us a choice to love him back. He never forces his love on us. He lets us be, and He lets us choose. The person who could wish and make things happen can never do that to us. How beautiful it is! It gives me the chills to think about it.
So when I love Him, it would be a real love. He does not manipulate situations so we could have no options but to run to Him, and the opposite is true: He does not do everything for us to make us fall in love with him. It is religion that does that, but His love lets us be us and gives us a choice to love Him back. Love Him imperfectly. Reject Him if we want to, and people do that; I do it many times, but I found His love to let me do it. I blame Him, and even though He knows He is right and I am wrong, He still lets me blame Him. He is the only one who could make me love Him, but in His love, He chooses not to.
Love requires a choice; it requires you to freely choose the one who loves you. God, who can do anything and for whom nothing is impossible, cannot make us love Him.
